Monday, April 20, 2009

Goals

I used to be a much more driven person and I feel like I've lost some of that so I'm going to start making goals and everyone will be able to make sure I follow them and help me out.

Goals:
1) Study Human Body everyday (at least some)
2) Stick to my diet and exercise program (basically keep me from eating too many sweets)
3) Learn at least 4 new songs every week

Those are 3 simple goals. Make sure I stick to them. If people know them I have people that can hold me accountable for messing up.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Brutally Honest

I bet you're really fucking proud of yourself. All this attention you've been getting lately. The opposite sex just can't resist you and you can't resist them. When you enter the room all eyes immediately converge on you and you absolutely love it. It's just one mistake after another. The messes we make only bring us more attention. Everyone is secretly in love with their own pain and suffering but they would not ever admit it. What doesn't kill you only gets you more sympathy. God forbid that something truly tragic were to ever happen to you. These messes you always find yourself in are all your own fault; perfectly orchestrated tragedies just so we can test the waters and keep the limelight focused directly on us. You're too scared of failure to actually take a chance and too scared to move on that you keep falling back into this vicious circle of yours. Fuck this tragic little world you've built for yourself. It is time to face reality and quit fucking things up for yourself before you go too far.

I guess that's just the morning after a party though when you wake up to the mess and faint memories of a good time. Sometimes you wake up feeling more empty than the bottles you have to pick up. I am sure she had a great time off wherever the fuck she may be. Stupid whore, I will take everything you ever loved. So many dreams and desires and so little time. I really am sick of hearing about this and I'm tired of biased judgment from people that don't know me. Fuck, I really hate this semester. Stupid whore, good luck finding anyone who will ever love you half as much as you love yourself. Good luck finding anyone that will ever treat you half as great as I did. Not that it really maters. There seems to be a trend here...
I guess that makes number 4 or 5. I have quit counting because it depresses me but the numbers are climbing. Yay for being blissfully single and don't forget to wipe your feet on the doormat.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

When I come around

Someday who I am will forgive who I've been but I should hurry up because I'll never be this young again.

Nothing is more frightening than the word "perfect".

Sleep is for the dreamers so don't ever let me wake.

I'll remain inspired until my expiration.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

And now for something completely different...

I found the corner in a spinning room. I gave in to entropy and fell through the ceiling then hit my head on the floor. It's time to cut these ties...
Life taught me that I'll die.
Love taught me how to cry.
Gravity taught me how to fly.
Jump from the tops of the highest man-made cliffs you can find and spread your wings. It's sink or swim. It's fly or die. Don't disappoint; that would be a messy failure...
Maybe it's the hyperglycemia, maybe it's just me but this room seems to be spinning out of my control. She sings to me a tune in the key of blue with spinning tangerine eyes and skin like bilirubin bleached bile.

BRING ON THE HUNGER! I'm ready for something new...

I really hope she's done being an intolerable bitch.
You really don't know the first thing about me.
What happened to that nice, sweet thing we all knew and loved?
Delay my satisfaction; as much as I love instant pleasure I want something more lasting.

It's time to cut my losses...

"What is he talking about?"
"who cares? just keep sitting on the back burner. The stomach pain will pass."

Happy Easter. Let's do it again next year if the zombies don't get to us first.

Anyways, I have so much more to see and nowhere pressing to be.
I'll sleep when I'm dead: Lay down in the dirt to finally rest my head.
But for now it's off to work I go
Hi ho hi ho it's off to work I fucking go.

Monday, April 6, 2009

misanthropy pure

Two bits of knowledge from my favorite misanthrope. I'll probably really blog sometime later this week.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3mFj5M3Cbs&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DB8wWlPdYRs&feature=related